I love you so so so so very much. we are quite like these fish i think, but im glad we arent actually kissing fish because we wouldnt be able to get anything done

roots

something ive been thinking about a lot recently is how much you pulled me back into the childlike wonder which i havent felt for so long, stuff like bugs and fish and nature. i never really gave much thought to that, but even here in toronto 6 gillion kilometers away from nature i found myself talking about bugs to thomas, its like thats what i naturally think of nowadays. its because you are so nature coded yourself, miss fish stickers rubbed off on me a bit.

you better keep up your fish drawings, one day theyll be going in a museum for sure. portia is the best artist i know

waterloo

when we came to waterloo i still wasnt sure what i wanted to do, i would never say it but i was very nervous about the future. remember when i "wanted to do actuarial science" for a little while? i still dont even know what they do

to be honest i wouldnt have gone to waterloo if it wasnt for you, it was a toss up when elliott said he was going to dal (i had already told him before we met that we would go to dal together), but in trying to push you to push yourself to go somewhere unfamiliar i realized i needed to take my own advice. looking back you have been the motivator for a lot of the best decisions ive made recently

i remember in orientation the second i said i was in math people looked down on me for it, like literally walked away, we definitely chose the most brutal school in the country. there is ZERO chance i would have made it where i am without you, i know you like to say its not true but the fact is for the past 8 months we were in waterloo you were really the only friend i had. without you i wouldve lost my mind after the first week

every friday was the highlight of my week, during some of those grinding periods it was like the light at the end of the tunnel which kept me going

phuture

i miss you so so much portia! even though you are very far away just know every night i send you a big kiss all the way to dartmouth and it floats to your forehead just as you hop in bed.

i think about you all the time and cant wait to see you again. ive been very busy over here in toronto, staying up late late late and it makes me miss the simple life of dartmouth sometimes. who knows maybe we'll move there one day after all

but instead of feeling bad about being seperated for now, i think its better to look forward to all the things we could do with our coop money in the near phuture:

• buy a widescreen tv for our apartment, cuddle on the couch and watch one piece until you doze off (before the opening ends)
• take a flight to argentina on reading week, do the patagonia trek together
• get a cozy little cottage by the beach, go out every morning looking for hermit crabs
• retire and grow old together, spending our years in your sunny field laying around counting clouds